Good Boy

01 Dec 2015 05:31 pm

Author's Comments:

Reply kangel, 01 Dec 2015 05:44 pm

Most people will tell you their dog is the best dog. They're probably right, I know I was.

He was put to sleep back in July of this year (2 weeks before his birthday). This was hard to make, I am emotional.

He was wonderful and I still miss him. It took a while before I stopped expecting to see him when I walked down the stairs, or hear his tail thumping when he heard me coming (on the subject of tails, have you heard of a condition called happy tail? It's not happy at all, it's messy. Jay had it once, the kitchen looked like a scene from a horror movie).

Looking after an old, disabled dog can be hard but it's worth it. I like to think he's jumping around in doggy heaven, or in people heaven (there has to be dogs in people heaven or what's the point?).

You can see a larger version of this comic over on Tapastic here

User's Comments:

Reply The_mad_one, 01 Dec 2015 07:03 pm

"We stayed with you and talked to you until you went to sleep. We stroked your fur even after you were gone and it didn't feel like you anymore."

Dammit, that one actually hit my feelings. Very similar story to our dog several years ago, the experience was identical to what's described here.

Edit: Sorry for your loss Kangel. And very sorry for having to edit that in and not saying it right away.

Reply CrystalCircle, 01 Dec 2015 07:10 pm

This was hard to read because we had to put my dog down yesterday. She was 14 and was getting really bad hips and had cancer near her stomach. She was a rescue and we got her when she was about a year old and she was fearful of a lot of things. It took a while, but she warmed up to us and ended up being a very happy dog. She loved people and loved my cats and the cats loved her. I think the hardest part about this is my one cat who always slept by her now sleeps on her bed alone. It still has her hair all over it and we may just leave it there for the cat's sake.

I'm sorry for your loss, Kangel. It's one of the hardest moments our lives when we lose a family member. Even if they have four paws and fur all over, they are still a huge part of our lives. Pets come and go, but we will always remember them. Thank you for giving your dog a wonderful life. I'm sure he thanks you too.

Reply Snurple-the-Hedgehog, 01 Dec 2015 09:21 pm

Ooooh, I knew I shouldn't have read this when I started seeing the moment when you mentioned that one day, he wasn't happy. I knew where it was going. I had a hard time moving from that point, I actually sat there for twenty or thirty minutes, pondering if I should move on or not. I sat there, pondering, if it should hit me in the darkest crevices that I had successfully stowed the pain away to few months ago after many eventful nights of having nightmares about him. I always questioned myself after his passing, was I a good caretaker? Was I really bad? Could he have been able to last long? Or could did he managed to reach to the last day? Truth to be told, I discovered the answer to my question that I kept asking myself for almost two whole years. I actually spoiled him almost like as if he was a son of mine. I had him when he was a fuzzy ball of fur at an age of four months. I had him for almost sixteen years. He passed away due to having two tumors in his liver, he could have lasted much longer-- but I didn't want him to suffer any longer.

At that moment, we always come to a very difficult decision. Thinking about how to end their life. Ironically enough, the way how you wrapped up your dog's life to its end... is exactly the same way I handled with mine.

He was let up on the sofa, he was let up on my bed to sleep next to me, he was spoiled with treats. I cooked him the favorite foods he couldn't even resist snatching away from us. A whole plate of salmon with mashed potatoes.

No human should ever go through that, seeing their pets passing away like that. It was an experience that no one would want to mention what it was like. It changes everyone's lives, it did change mine from that very specific day. Everything changes after that moment, everything is completely different. It still hurts, but the good memories were worth the pain.

I am going to say this sweet and simple.
You took care of that dog in the best way possible, and you should be proud for it.

I hope to see more of your works!

Reply nightxwitch14, 01 Dec 2015 10:11 pm

OMG this just reminded me of when I had to put down my cat ;_; I held him in my arms as they put him down, and it breaks my heart every time I think about it. I'm sorry for you loss :( I know how it feels...

Reply stickwill, 01 Dec 2015 10:21 pm

"You came to live with us about 12 years ago"
NOPE NOPE NOPE NOT READING
MY DAY WAS SAD ENOUGH ALREADY

Reply RedJac, 02 Dec 2015 01:41 am

I'm not gonna cry, I'm not gonna cry, not gonna...damn... Ouch...my heart. I'm REALLY crying while I type this...it's just so sad...

Reply Wolfsubzero, 02 Dec 2015 02:00 am

@kangel: We had to put our german shepherd down two weeks before I first left for university, and I still keep expecting her to be the first to the door when I get home. She had really fluffy ears and we kept stroking them as she went to sleep.

Reply MewMizu, 02 Dec 2015 02:20 am

Now I'm crying in a train. Damn it.

Reply Dana (Guest), 02 Dec 2015 07:21 am

Damn you...you made me cry at work..not cool...beautiful writting...thanks

Reply Jon (Guest), 02 Dec 2015 08:01 am

Dogs come into our lives to show us the meaning of unconditional love. They pack alot of love into a short amount of time............ Crying at work.

Reply CarefulKoala, 02 Dec 2015 08:12 am

bawling my eyes out this made me remember when this happened to our Lady
though because im stubborn we waited even longer and she was even blind by the time see went to sleep :(

Reply Creppzuzette, 02 Dec 2015 09:45 am

@MewMizu: Mulla on vaan roska silmässä.

Reply Remainder, 02 Dec 2015 01:41 pm

aw... I'm crying...

Good work on the comic.

So sorry about... this. Condolences.

Reply Sapar, 02 Dec 2015 03:22 pm

This reminds me of when I put down my cat several years ago. It all happened so suddenly- she just got worse and worse over a matter of weeks.

I remember singing to her in her last moments....

Good on you for having the strength to make a comic like this. It can't have been easy, and I'm glad (and frankly, a little proud) that you've been able to push through since then.

Reply Mopwop, 02 Dec 2015 04:09 pm

Don't cry don't you dare cry body or I swear I will beat you into a blob of flesh don't even think about crying come on body you can do this don't cry blink away those drops of water that are definitely not tears-

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

Reply VelvetRainbow, 02 Dec 2015 06:45 pm

OH NOES I DIDN'T BRING MY PERMISSION SLIP FOR THE FEELS TRIP!



*cries really hard omg this is so bittersweet*

Reply ToxicBreeze, 02 Dec 2015 08:07 pm

This tore me up.. We had our dog of nearly 18 years put down on Easter of 2014. I still miss her terribly ..
She went through a lot of similar things in the last few years of her life but the whole time, she seemed happy.

You did a beautiful job with this one. It was hard to read but very touching.

I like to think that all of our good dogs are somewhere living it up together..

Reply Maggie (Guest), 02 Dec 2015 08:41 pm

Feels I think this will be one of my favorite comics here to date. I can feel the feelings coming off of it as I read it. It is loving and inspiring and touching.

Reply inuaineko (Guest), 03 Dec 2015 01:54 am

I can't handle the sadness <:.( </3

Reply hodag (Guest), 04 Dec 2015 02:12 am

This happened to us last week My mom's 13 year old Spaniel who I had help take care of when she was out of town since he was a puppy. Mass on the spleen and internal bleeding. He passed away with us rubbing his ears and telling him what a good dog he was.

Reply Browser, 04 Dec 2015 07:48 am

We had a Keeshond cross, beautiful fur that went between rust-coloured and beige. The most placid and tolerant nature I've seen (had toddlers sitting on her back pulling her fur at one point and just lay there trying to sleep, she was rescued from that situation of course). She lived to be about 18 (calendar) years old. I still miss her.
Edit: She wasn't put down but passed away naturally. She was very happy right through to the end. We originally got her as a pup at a pound. I still remember having the bathroom floor covered in newspaper. I shared over half my life with her.

Reply TomoDatDorkHiro, 04 Dec 2015 05:06 pm

This made me tear up. Mostly because my hamster is in a state where we don't know if she'll live or die...

Reply Da_Big_J, 05 Dec 2015 02:17 pm

This move me to the point that I got an account just so I could comment this

Reply BlueDogXL, 06 Dec 2015 10:27 am

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Reply WellyCollins, 07 Dec 2015 12:42 am

I only lost my dog 3 weeks ago, this makes me sad again...

Reply hp (Guest), 09 Dec 2015 02:28 am

in memorium of Lizzy I know, what you have feeled.... Thanks for painting the good times and the bad times of having a dog.

Reply Alexx (Guest), 09 Dec 2015 12:14 pm

You're stronger than me - I couldn't stay in the room when we had to let my childhood dog go (1989-2003). I went out and huddled by the car and cried, with confused onlookers walking by, bringing in healthy pets.

We had a similar "it's time" moment, when my mom was looking for Cody (my dog) and found out she never asked to come back inside when it was raining. She just was so tired that she fell asleep in the middle of the back yard IN THE RAIN. She HATED water. That was pretty much the sign that we were kind of holding on a little too hard. She was having the same walking and balance problems you had described, and wasn't holding her bladder (we just set up an old sleeping bag for her to sleep on and washed it every morning).

Thanks for the story! Amazing work, even if I'm cryin' at the end. I think everyone can relate, in some way.

Reply Stouvi (Guest), 10 Dec 2015 10:21 am

All aboard the feel train... Next stop Feel-adelphia... Sorry for your loss. It happened to me one year ago and i still can't handle it. Boubou, my one year old Frenchie was at the vet because she had a big epilepsy seizure. She was there for 3 days and it wasn't going better. The third day, as I was leaving work to see her, I had a call from the vet saying he was really sorry but it was too late. Knowing she died alone still breaks my heart, even after a year. So every time i think about her, i cry.

Reply BR (Guest), 10 Dec 2015 04:44 pm

Good Boy Good Boy

Reply King_Rover, 10 Dec 2015 07:56 pm

Help

I'm feeling


It's going to get in my way of Christmas murder

Reply jkhero73, 10 Dec 2015 09:53 pm

...I feel your pain. I miss Calypso...

Reply Ashley C. (Guest), 11 Dec 2015 10:10 am

I'm in the middle now...... I can't read this without bawling. This is so amazingly beautiful, especially the end, and I'm sure I'll be reading it over and over when it's time.

My cat is in slow renal failure. She had lost a lot of weight but was her normal self, so I wasn't really concerned when I took her in. The bloodwork came back with a creatinine of 8.1 (normal is < 1.8) and a blood nitrogen so high they wouldn't tell me. The vets put her on IV fluids immediately but told me that when the numbers get that bad, it's usually complete end stage and there's not enough kidney function to do much of anything. They kept her over the weekend as I cried.

Her creatinine came down to 5.1 after a weekend of IV fluids. BUN was 90 (normal is <35). I was taught how to give subQ fluids and an appointment made for 2 weeks later. She didn't like the fluids (it was 250ml a day into a make 7lb cat) but we worked hard with positive reinforcement, some treats, and lots of love, and she came to endure them. We were still told that it would be sooner rather than later, considering the blood work when she came in.

She gained the weight back. Her bloodwork started to level off at a creatinine of 2.5 and BUN of 30. We slowly decreased the amount and frequency until we hit a time when the creatinine levels rose again.

It's been over a year. We give 200ml every 4 days, now. She's her old self through and through, and is a healthy 9lbs or so. But still I watch for any changes. I wonder if her new sleeping position (right next to me, always cuddled as close as possible) is a sign that she knows she's going downhill. I wonder at every tiny change thinking "Is this it?" and dreading the day when the answer is "Yes".

I know that one day, it'll be obvious. I'll know it's time and I'll need to make that call. She's lived 12 months longer than everyone gave her when are came in, but I know it won't last. And I know the decline will be sharp and sudden. She is 11 years old. About 3 weeks from her birthday. I have no expectations that she will reach 13.

And I know I'll be back here reading this again when it's all over. Because those final panels are beautiful. And exactly what I will need to see, and imagine, when I no longer have my furry tumor snuggled next to my head at nights anymore.

Thank you

Reply Lizzy (Guest), 11 Dec 2015 03:39 pm

This made me cry We have a 17 year old black lab, collie, chow and everything else mix (looks like your dog). The comment about how your dog wasn't the most well behaved made me laugh because this is my dog.

She's gradually deteriorating since a mini stroke about 4 years ago. She can't walk properly any more without additional assistance due to arthritis and hip pain. Despite this, she still acts puppy like from time to time and mentally is still very alert. The other day, she wanted to play tug a war with her rope toy even though she can barely stand up. Silly girl, she doesn't know she's old.

The day will come soon - we all know this but it will be hard to accept this. I'll be bawling over but I know this will be the best for her. So I now try to enjoy each and every day we have with her, and give her whatever she needs to ensure a better quality of life for her.

Thank you for posting this beautiful comic.

Reply Wanda (Guest), 11 Dec 2015 07:02 pm

My furbaby @kangel: my family had 2 dogs and when the vet told me and my daughter that our Golden at the age of 8 was in a bad way. I've never been with a pet that was put to sleep so it was devastating to me when it happened. My daughter and I stayed with our little girl the whole way. We were both laying on the floor with her, crying so much that the vet was crying too. When we got home our other dog looked upset cuz we didn't bring her 'sibling' in with us. She knew. Two years later our other dog had to go too. My husband and I stayed with her thru it. I could hardly choke out my goodbyes to my little baby. We had her for 15 years. It killed me. I just lost my heart that day.

Reply cleatscrea, 11 Dec 2015 07:19 pm

got to the heart of it... ...best illustration of a precious life and the last favor to a loved one ever!

Reply Ramon (Guest), 12 Dec 2015 10:19 pm

Thank you for your illustration. I lost my dog Storm to cancer. We had to put her to sleep on Tuesday December 8. It's only been 5 days and we miss her so much. Asides from jumping into the canal and eating cat poo...hahaha....it was like they had identical lives. I'm sorry for your loss.

Broken hearted,
Ramon

Reply Angel (Guest), 13 Dec 2015 11:43 pm

@kangel: This was beautiful.. so sorry for your loss :( Rest in Peace, Jay. I can't get over how much Jay looks like my rescue dog Hachi (blue heeler/chow/lab) who definitely has a very happy tail and gentle manner.

Dogs don't live long enough :(

Reply paroikos (Guest), 14 Dec 2015 02:52 pm

I had a wolf several years back, she didn't have a mean bone in her body either. All the neighbors loved her. Except one, who was a drug dealer. She would break chains and cables to go see neighbors, one day the drug dealer shot her in the leg. She survived and we paid to have her fixed up, and we got two more years before she fell out the car window while driving over gravel, the leash caught in the car and drug her underneath. Still remember her laying at the vet afterwards, obviously in pain, unable to do anything but lift her head, but she smiled at us as the family gathered around and hugged her until she was asleep.

Reply Pawsomenss, 15 Dec 2015 07:00 am

I feel you, buddy This story is almost identical to the one of my old dog...(except the whole cat poop thing...and donut trees, heh)
Your dog seemed super cool, and I'm sorry he's gone. Just know that he's not in pain anymore, y'know? Ugh I bet I sound like every other comment here...I apologize.

Reply wkmtca (Guest), 15 Dec 2015 08:12 pm

god said come i put my 17 yr old down this past september. god said come..and she did...

Reply Warpstar, 15 Dec 2015 09:45 pm

@kangel: Does he have a grave?

Reply Celine (Guest), 15 Dec 2015 10:13 pm

My dog just passed away last month, it was really sad to see him suffered as he couldn't stand or walk! This comic reminds me of him and now im in tears!

Reply Jennifer (Guest), 16 Dec 2015 07:23 am

Thank you My condolences and thank you for sharing. Like so many others I am in mourning and this helps.

Reply Cheryl (Guest), 16 Dec 2015 11:53 am

Didn't "know" when it was time, until I "knew" I lost my eldest dog in October. He was 16 (would've been 17 in January). He was aging very rapidly the 9 months prior we put him down. I asked several people, "How do you know when it's time?" They kindly replied, "You just know. They'll tell you." And indeed he did. This was a beautiful comic. Thank you and my condolences to you.

Reply Muahy (Guest), 17 Dec 2015 02:04 am

I'm so sorry for your loss. I keep typing and deleting because I don't want my experience to infringe on yours. Your pup was so lucky to have such a caring owner that was there through all the good, and the not so good, right up to the end. You're a good human.

Reply Cats. (Guest), 17 Dec 2015 01:02 pm

OH noo This is so sad, I am so sorry!!!!!! :C I hope you feel better, ily <3 <3 :C

Reply Speedyturtle (Guest), 17 Dec 2015 04:50 pm

Sorry for your loss. It is really sad when a pet dies. My cat died a few years ago and we might have to put down my German Shepherd soon. She is 12 now, so she has lived a pretty long life. She has cancer and we are giving her medicine but we don't know how much longer we can keep her. :(

Reply LindaW (Guest), 20 Dec 2015 10:36 am

One Bad Day I loved, loved the dog's life you shared with us. I just try to remember the good days and not the ONE bad day.

Reply Melissa (Guest), 20 Dec 2015 11:20 am

best one ever @kangel: this made me sob, but I can not stop rereading it. Thank you for the accurate and heartfelt account of how it is to love a dog. Truly beautiful!

Reply Elaine Wallace (Guest), 20 Dec 2015 11:35 am

beautiful This is so beautiful and true for all our fur babies.

Reply Dean (Guest), 20 Dec 2015 11:43 pm

Hemangiosarcoma The Handsome Hound had a splenetic mass in the spring. We had a splenectomy in May. The biopsy came back hemagiosarcoma. 4 rounds of Chemo (the big pen please so he can have his therapy human in with him). We are chugging along at the moment. Feeding beef toungues and hearts. I fear the day. He has been such a good boy. I am going to miss him when the day comes. Thank you for the beautiful comic.

Reply Kafi (Guest), 21 Dec 2015 01:15 am

my heart just broke and I can relate, our dog just died yesterday and we miss him so much. :(

"We stayed with you and talked to you until you went to sleep. We stroked your fur even after you were gone and it didn't feel like you anymore."

Reply Mike (Guest), 21 Dec 2015 06:49 pm

Having had 4 go over the bridge in the past 6 months, this helps, but they all passed when I was away.

Reply Sol, 21 Dec 2015 07:26 pm

This reminded me so much of my first dog who died when she was only 7. She got cancer in one of her legs and wasn't supposed to survive the summer, but she lived past Christmas and New Years and into February. She never let her permanent cast get in her way and wasn't afraid to bop people with it sometimes, but she meant the world to me and was like a sister to me, as I was an only child. I still think of her all the time, so I relate to this comic a lot.

Reply Laurel (Guest), 27 Dec 2015 08:41 pm

So sorry for your loss. It's been 3 years since my heart dog passed. She was the best, sweetest dog in the world....unlike your own sad situation, she simply laid down one evening and never woke up. It was just like her to spare us the pain of making the decision to put her down. However, I've had to do it for other pets. You gave your dog the dignified, loving end we would all want for ourselves. Bless you and bless your dog, and thank you for sharing this.

Reply wolfknight (Guest), 28 Dec 2015 08:35 pm

Salutations from the Comments Section I'm sorry. Dogs are the best, and we don't get to appreciate them for long enough. Jay's looking down at you all from whatever form of heaven you choose to believe in, along with all of ours. I guess dogs give us a unique view on our own mortality, but it's a view I, at least currently, don't want to see. Anyway, I'm sorry that this comment is super late and overly similar to all the other comments, and if it makes you sad to read, please don't feel that you must. But anyway- I love your comic as always and wish you happiness.

Reply Guest, 31 Dec 2015 12:27 am

I'm going to cry
The way you did this is just so
So
So sad
(I have two dogs)

Reply Mary N. (Guest), 31 Dec 2015 12:23 pm

So sad I read this through tears pouring down my face...so beautifully written...the illustrations precious...So sorry for your loss...I know losing my Maggie 6 yrs ago changed my life forever...she was my heart and I still miss her everyday...sounds silly I know...your story parallels my goodbye with my sweet girl...My heart has a big hole in it and I hope to meet her again in heaven and it surely won't be heaven if she isn't there waiting for me.

Reply dutchgirl71 (Guest), 05 Jan 2016 12:20 pm

This made me sob like a grown woman immediately after reading. It just erupted. Even though I knew it would be emotional, I was surprised by how intense and immediate my reaction was after the first glimpse of the whole tale.

It's just one of the most simple and true things I have ever read. It could have been my Greta girl's story. I miss her (and Flea) every day.

This is amazing, and I'm glad it's out there. Thank you for creating it.

Reply Cupcake 132 (Guest), 30 Jan 2016 12:01 pm

2016 Reply if your reading in 2016, and you think this is sad!!!

Reply meecherTV (Guest), 31 Jan 2016 02:00 pm

Shit... I'm not crying often... but f*ck.... This got me so hard. My dog is only 3 years old but I totally can imagine that feelings from the comic... This is one of the sadest comics ever.

Reply Julian Blair (Guest), 01 Feb 2016 06:09 pm

Sad I loved it so much. It got really sad and I had to skip a little bit though

Reply N/A (Guest), 02 Feb 2016 04:17 am

@Cupcake 132: Why would you think in any situation especially this one a comment like that should be necessary...

Reply Nerva (Guest), 06 Feb 2016 10:00 am

oops.. ugh im crying

this reminds me of when my old black cat died. We didnt put him down, but.. we spent all of our time with him when we knew it was time for him to go. i went upstairs when he was in the laundry basket. he couldnt even get down to pee in the cat box, so he peed in there. i didnt care. i pet him and then suddenly he was gone. this happened in 2015, but it still hurts.

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